Fucking pissed off

Why are people always so shallow? Why is it that even families are so mean and sacsartic towards each other? I hate it all the sharp words whenever I'm outside facing all those hypocrites "friends" but even when I'm homed I have to suck it up with their bullshit nonsense. 

Do I really deserve all these? Deserve all the shits in the world and nothing good? Fuck them and bullcrap, don't ever wonder if it's other factors that caused me to hate this fucked up "family" because family don't hate and fuck each other over and over. YOU make me hate my existence here. YOU make me feel like I don't belong here. YOU make me feel the least deserving and worthy.