Why doesn't people think what they does is actually hurtful? Why can people just so balantly disregard someone? I'm just losing all the faith in friendship. Just going to continue telling myself how much I don't need friends in my life, just when I was about to believe in friendships everything just crushes down now it doesn't even matter. No more hopes and wishful thinkings. Just gotta find a place where I can fit in. Maybe just maybe my next phase of life would be even better and I'm just undergoing obstacle that I will eventually overcome it. "I am strong" - I tell myself everyday.

O levels

Recently, I really don't know what's happening to me. I feel that I'm going to screw this major exam even before I took it. Yes, I can proudly say that I had work hard for the past 10 months. I can say that I am prepared for most of the papers at least. But why do I feel like a complete loser every night? It just sucks that every night I have to cry myself to sleep. The most amusing thing is that I have no idea what am I crying over. I really want to excel in this, I have come so far not to flop my Os. Everynight I just can't fall asleep then I feel like a complete loser crying to myself and thinking that why am I wasting my time by not studying. I really hope this go away soon. I can't afford to lose it at this thin margin. I need to be strong and positive. Where are all my positive vibes? I need all of them now. I need to pick myself up and stop being such a pussy. 

To the 2.5 months older me, I hope you like what you see on the results slip. I know it's not easy but you made it through. Well done.