Wanting it so badly

30 days to Os.

The last final lap that marks the end of my secondary education. I really want to do well and get into a JC because I have to get into an uni. I'm doing this for myself and for my mom. I want her to be proud of myself that I am able to be independent in the future. Please grant me more discipline and motivation. I need to work extra hard than others and not spend my time sleeping while ppl are studying. This journey is tough but I'm gonna excel. I'm been working so hard because I really want this badly. I really hope at the end of the day hard work pays off.Good luck and all the best to I.  

M&M

So it was my cousin's Miko and her current husband Marco wedding on Monday. I was very looking forward to that day because they have been tgt for 10 years and they are really very nice couple. Just very happy for them and wishing them a blissful marriage life ahead. I hope things in life are just so magical like this forever. My heart was practically filled with love for them. Couldn't been more happy for them. (':

:)

Shall start documenting happy things that happened in my life that I'm grateful for. 

Today is a happy day. 

Actually, I don't even know how to start this post. But do you ever feel so hurt that all you want to do is to avoid it? I really hate school. I don't mean the learning and teachers. I just hate everyone around. I hate how people make me feel of myself. Saying nasty things and backstabbing you, why did people become like this? No one left to trust. Nothing worst than being hurt by someone really dearly and close to you. I gave it all out, but time after time you ruin it again. You have turned into person I do not know anymore. Can I be selfish like everyone and say "I'm tired" so I can stop trying? Or is it that I'm not deserving enough to enjoy the good in my life? Why must people constantly make me feel like trash? Why is it no one bothers to stop and care for me? I couldn't do this anymore.. I have never been so crushed before. As I'm typing this, tears used to roll down but no longer now. It just hurts so badly.. I'm just like a ball being kick around by everyone.. It's not that I didn't realize that the world is so cruel, I knew it all along. I just didn't know friends can just turn their backs on you anytime. Maybe I'm not a good friend at all.. I shan't talk to people abt this, I shan't give my comments.. Sometimes I wonder do you feel like what I felt when I did those things? Many said its just that I'm too sensitive, but am I? Too sensitive of how people feel? Should I just stop doing? Why can't someone else fight for me instead? I'm really sick of all these girls drama.. Why can't people just stop it.. I'm so lost.. Just like a bird with no sense of direction.. I don't know what to do anymore..