There's no retakes in life.

Why do we keep thinking about the past when nothing can be changed?

Why don't we look forward to the future and do the best we can we be contented? 

Why do I keep grieving over my losses when I can count my blessings?

If only....

If only, my parents didn't separate.

If only, my mom is still alive.

If only, I went into a JC.

If only, I major in sciences.

If only, I continued my singing and dancing classes.

Defense Mechanism

Sometimes I secretly wish that my mom and dad are in a hiding. They will appear in my life when I'm 30 and apologize for not being there for me when I was younger. I will be frustrated and blamed them for leaving me alone. But I realize it's impossible. I will never be able to have a chance to blame anyone or even God for taking them away from me.