I'm dying inside so so badly

I don't know how to scream for help

It's painful

It's engulfing 

Weird feeling insides of me

Can't breathe 

Can't hold my tears

Can't lift my eyelids

Nothing but an empty soul 

Sometimes all I wanna be like...

"Hehe shopping day with mummy 🙆"

Or like

"Thanks dad for sending me to sch so I won't be late 😘"

Or be like 

"Zzzz mom can't stop nagging me to wash the dishes" 

But I guess I would never ever have this privilege... 

I promise to work so damn hard and provide the best loving family I'll ever have to my child. 

没人要

妈不要我

爸不要我

好友不要我

每个人都不要我

那活着还有什么意义。。